Monday, April 21, 2008

the perfect mom

Sometimes I get intimidated by the other mothers in the world. You know, the ones that are super put-together and look fabulous all the time, have their kids looking trendy and cute, have all the right things in the diaper bag, and then some. Or the ones that aren't put-together at all, but don't care, have amazingly creative children because they spend all day putting together clay and origami projects, listening to Mozart, and feeding her entire family meals made of totally organic ingredients and that take months to prepare. Or the ones that do absolutely everything themselves, like make fingerpaint from scratch and have never thought to use a pre-made mix. Or the ones that carry their children everywhere, admittedly because they have to , but it makes their children develop healthy attachment attitudes toward relationships.

I am not any of these mothers, but nor do I need to be.

I still get intimidated by them, because they do some things (or a lot of things) better than I do or possibly ever will. But, by the grace of God, I am coming to terms with the fact that I cannot be all things to my baby. Forget all people, I'm just trying to not become a psycho freak who makes her child depend on her for his every need.

Now, I know that he is only 8 months old. But these things are surprisingly coming into play already, especially when people make innocent comments like, "what's he have to eat today? any veggies? no veggies..." Now, I'm sure that person didn't mean it in any kind of implying way...but it made me feel like I was shoving sweets galore down my sweeties little throat. And it was not of God. I just need to remember that I am not perfect, and never will be this side of heaven. I am doing the best I can with what I have been given, and will continue to be the best mom I can be. That's what God wants of me, and He has Jeremiah in His hands.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

to get ice cream, I must jog

I love the sun! In New England, when the sunshine finally decides to break through, you realize how gloomy it's been. Winter is SO freakin' long here! I think I'm getting used to it, but my days in the South still sit with me as more normal...even though they basically have spring to summer to fall and back again and that's it.

Anyway, I am very excited about the spring weather - it means I can use my jogging stroller again with Jeremiah. Not that I love jogging...but it gets me in the fresh air and doing something healthy for a change. It also gets me thinking about ice White Farms or Cap'n Dusty's, or Dairy Queen...or all three. Which brings me back to the jogging thing...that's gotta happen or the ice cream thing can't happen. That'll be my motivation.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

and IT stands for...

I have this new job at an IT firm...I am working as a receptionist for the spring and summer and it is very unstimulating.  I always thought i would like a job that had a ton of free time to read or do whatever I needed to do with no pressure, but I should have known myself better than that.  All I do is answer phones and transfer the caller to whoever they want to talk to - same with the faxes.  The other administrative people are slowly teaching me other things to do, but I'm starting to go a little stir crazy!  I'm bringing my Ped books with me to read and learn some things while I sit on my butt and talk to people who have crazy accents on the phone.  This company is in cahoots with a China based company, so we get a lot of Chinese people calling.  Which is cool, except I can't understand what they are saying.  That's about the only stimulating part of the job.  That and the people I work with are very friendly and talkative, so that helps.  Anyway, I am very thankful for the job and Jon and I no longer need to worry about where the next rent check is going to come from.  Thank you, Lord.