Monday, April 21, 2008

the perfect mom

Sometimes I get intimidated by the other mothers in the world. You know, the ones that are super put-together and look fabulous all the time, have their kids looking trendy and cute, have all the right things in the diaper bag, and then some. Or the ones that aren't put-together at all, but don't care, have amazingly creative children because they spend all day putting together clay and origami projects, listening to Mozart, and feeding her entire family meals made of totally organic ingredients and that take months to prepare. Or the ones that do absolutely everything themselves, like make fingerpaint from scratch and have never thought to use a pre-made mix. Or the ones that carry their children everywhere, admittedly because they have to , but it makes their children develop healthy attachment attitudes toward relationships.

I am not any of these mothers, but nor do I need to be.

I still get intimidated by them, because they do some things (or a lot of things) better than I do or possibly ever will. But, by the grace of God, I am coming to terms with the fact that I cannot be all things to my baby. Forget all people, I'm just trying to not become a psycho freak who makes her child depend on her for his every need.

Now, I know that he is only 8 months old. But these things are surprisingly coming into play already, especially when people make innocent comments like, "what's he have to eat today? any veggies? no veggies..." Now, I'm sure that person didn't mean it in any kind of implying way...but it made me feel like I was shoving sweets galore down my sweeties little throat. And it was not of God. I just need to remember that I am not perfect, and never will be this side of heaven. I am doing the best I can with what I have been given, and will continue to be the best mom I can be. That's what God wants of me, and He has Jeremiah in His hands.

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