Monday, September 21, 2009

Not a fan of:

tired cranky children who pull at my clothes. ({cough} jeremiah...)

tired cranky people who take it out on me. I know we all do it sometimes, but really. Please stop. Go home and go to bed.

apathetic students. When did it become cool to diss your elders?

excuses. Just do it.

sarcastic responses. Get a life.

altos singing tenor parts. Freakin' what? I'm a mezzo!

sore muscles. I think I'm still sick.

nasal drip. 14 days now.

10pm baseball games. Why? Can't it be earlier?

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Clean my House!

I've been hired as the cleaning lady at our local church...it's been an interesting ride so far. I really don't think the church has been deep-cleaned in years. I'm doing way beyond the normal requirement of basic cleaning week-to-week...but it is SO needed. I've finally gotten to the point that I'm basically happy with how things look...but a lot of heavy-duty things still need to be done. Like, shampooing the carpets, repainting the windowsills, completely re-doing both the bathrooms in the main church area, purging the library and storage areas that are filled to the brim with sunday school and lesson materials that are decades old.

Ugh, I get so mad just thinking about it sometimes. The first week I was there (scrubbing black stuff off the kitchen walls) I just kept thinking about the fact that any new person stepping into our church would think we don't care about what God thinks at all. We had this place so disgusting...and it is a reflection of how we view our Lord. I don't know why it hit me so hard... maybe because I've just read through the entire Old Testament where every action is about honoring God and the consequences of not giving Him the honor and praise He deserves...but I was incredulous at how dirty everything was. I've been working over the alloted time to scrub down walls and floors and make all these outdated rusty appliances and cabinets look clean in some way shape or form. But the important thing to me is this: We need to keep God's house in shape. It's a reflection of our love for Him, and the rest of the world will notice. I've been slowly getting to all these little things, and thinking to myself, No one will notice that this huge stain on the carpet is no longer here. But I bet they noticed when it was there.

And we wonder why we've had visitors never come back. If you kept your house that way, do you think people would be breaking down the door to return?

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Opera Idol

Ooooo....this is cool.

I had a dream that I was going to try out next summer for American Idol (maybe because I watched "So You think you can Dance" last night) and was totally psyched for it. Then I saw an ad for Opera Idol in NH with the Lakes Region Opera company...I think there's a theme going on. So, I'm gonna do it. The competition is sometime in November. A couple friends of mine have done it in the past and said it was fun. There are cash prizes for 1st, 2nd and 3rd, plus an "audience favorite" category (my friend won that category one year).

I think I'll do my "Una Voce Poco Fa"...it seems to get good feedback, plus it's definitely showy and fun.

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

coming up next...

So, no go on "Charlie Brown"...but then I had already assumed that there was nothing there. I don't know that I would want to be part of something that didn't have people to choose from that could come to callbacks. I really hadn't been able to show them much, so I don't blame them at all. In fact, it's a bit of a relief, since the rehearsal schedule for that show was ridiculous! 4 nights a week this month and next and the show wasn't until Nov. 15th or something like that.

Next audition is late October for Magic Flute. 2-3 arias, one in English, perferably one Mozart. I have that, no problem. The rehearsals and show dates for this would take place between March 15 and late May (much more plausible!) and is a company I have auditioned for previously, but didn't get a role. But, they did encourage me to audition again, so here I am.

Really, I just need to keep auditioning, regardless of whether the time makes sense for me or not. At this point, I am still too nervous auditioning to sing well. It doesn't matter if it's an important audition or not. (See this)

I must get over the fear of rejection.

Friday, September 04, 2009

It is so hard to get back into school mode. I have been spoiled rotten this summer...letting myself take naps whenever I want to, going wherever I want to, and not one work obligation. I don't think that's happened since before high school. Of course, I had to be home to let Jeremiah sleep for his nap, but then I could sit outside in the gorgeous weather and read read read for hours and get a perfect tan. Or, I could sleep. Which, believe me was totally worth it too.

And now, I have had one week of school. Well, kind of one week. Two teacher days and one half day of teaching. Which ended up being a joke, because an assembly took all my teaching time away. Anyway, tuesday is my first full day of teaching. I am looking forward to teaching and singing and all that...but am not looking forward to the scheduling. Ugh, how I despise being on a schedule. I know that is probably not normal, but I feel so limited and trapped when I am supposed to be somewhere. And the time that I am not working, I am babysitting my child and another. Which will be fine, but definitely an adjustment as I learn this other child's temperament and way of communicating. During the dinner hour. Every day.

Yes, I'm whining. I'm not really upset by all this, but needing to vent. I don't like working...I like to do what I love and that's it. But, then again, that's everyone, right? ;) At least I'm teaching music. I do have fun with it, and I do find myself getting passionate about it...I think it's just a little harder for me to fully delve into than some other friends of mine. And I kinda wish I were more like them.

But, instead, I am a quirky singer who wants to sing. So, I am making the most of the summer by following up with some singers I made connections with at Longwood Opera, hoping for a little one-on-one time to get advice and ideas on how to proceed. I have two auditions scheduled for the fall. I need to be fearless and guiltless. And I know that really won't happen, but I have to find a way to pretend really well at times. I will not quit now.

Not unless the Lord desires.