Monday, January 31, 2011

An actual Multitude Monday

Yay! I made it to another monday! (not many people say that, do they?) :)

There are many many things to be grateful for, and I forget so often, and say things in condescending tones to my husband and forget how much to be thankful for in him. I forget myself in the tired middle months of winter, where I think things that spiral to depression and hopelessness. I forget how even in death, God makes way for the new; that the darkest hour has traditionally been before the morning - that as we long for warmth and spring and sun and joyous freedom in air, that there is providence in the snow and waking from apathy in the bitter cold, and learning to trust in trying times.

I am halfway through a school day, waiting on more snow days coming mid-week, and deciding to celebrate God's provision in my life.

61. NOT having an accident this morning and being safe from harm on treacherous crazy massachusetts roadways

62. 4th graders who can read syncopation (somewhat accurately)

63. Enthusiastic students across the grade levels

64. a baby who kicks (and kicks, and kicks, and...)

65. lots of snow to provide for our financial plan!

66. A hubby who loves to plow! (good thing...)

67. busy mondays to help me appreciate the quiet thursdays

68. unexpected babysitting help

69. Sunshine patches on snow!

70. how people's attitudes toward you change when they find out you're expecting. :)

Saturday, January 29, 2011

oh, today

- went to Trader Joe's with Jon's gift card (Jon came too, don't worry) and got some free groceries on top of the gift card because the machine was acting funky and wouldn't take my card...too bad for them, but they didn't seem to mind too much. I don't mind at all!

- woke up (actually, went to sleep with) a HORRIBLE crick in my neck, that became a stiff neck that won't allow me to move without being in immense Other than that, I am in a good mood, but you would never know it by my pained expression. Poor Jeremiah keeps asking me if I am happy...he's kinda like a dog that way - if he senses someone is unhappy, he has to cheer them up and hang around until they are ok.

- Jon and Jeremiah are out shoveling, which probably means Jon is shoveling and Jeremiah is throwing snow in the air, but it's good getting him used to "doing chores", right?

- Jon and I have a grand plan for Valentine's Day, involving coupons and gift cards so we don't have to spend a fortune, but we'll have to see if it actually works out since it's contingent on a few other details as well.

- I finally started painting our bedroom! I am finally inspired...color does that for me. My friend Missy is going to help me gather more inspiration soon, once all the painting is done, so this room can actually be a place I want to hang out once the baby is born.

- We are going to be able to have a nursury after all. The young man living with us is going to be moving out next month, so we will be able to use his room as the baby room. More decorating for me!

- I started a new voice student yesterday, a freshman. She is pretty bad, with no experience beyond high school chorus...but that is a good thing since I can start from scratch. And her mom is real easy-going...gotta love that. It's exciting to be teaching privately again - it's been a couple years, but I just couldn't fit it into my schedule. And I've had a couple inquiries from other students as someone that is a younger friend of mine wanting some "brush-up" lessons (she was a voice major or minor in college), so that would be fun.

- Life is good...I'm about 25 weeks along now - feeling fine, actually enjoying the pregnancy a bit this time. :) This little one delivers a mean kick, though!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

multitude mondays...or thursdays.

Going to do a thankful thursday instead of a monday (which I haven't been doing in some time either...good job, Jen.) :) ugh. This is starting off well....I believe I left off at 50 last time (about 5 months ago?? yikes...can I actually commit to this blog and stop being so flaky?)'s been a kind-of good then no-good day of beautiful, sunny weather outside shining on lots of snow; sick, whiny, testy little 3 year old boy; and achey, flu-like body o' mine in the midst of it all.

By the way, we got LOTS of snow yesterday. And 2 snow days because of it. wow. I tell ya what, wow. (name that movie?)

Here goes nothin'...I need this right now.

51. the satisfaction of feeding my family on a small budget, but still getting nutrients we need in us

52. A hubby who works hard to provide

53. A little boy who is so transparent in his need to be loved, despite his pushing and pulling and whining and driving-me-craziness. God made them cute for a reason.

54. God showing me one reason for children is to show me my relationship to Him

55. This recipe of Homemade Oreos. Mmmmmmm.

56. My son who shares (is brainwashed?) my love of funk, country, and dance music. He is SO cute when he dances around the house with me.

57. Emergency funds. Dave Ramsey is a lifesaver.

58. SNOW! and more SNOW! and MORE SNOW!!!

59. God's providence in our everyday life

60. Snow crystals on the windows

ok, I feel a little better. God is good...even when things seem crappy. He doesn't always make things all fuzzy and warm, despite what we think God "taking care of us" means - and I think that's a hard lesson to learn. Not that today was really that difficult, I just think my capacity to deal with it is diminished. While God is not safe...He is good. He will not make life hunky-dory. Or, if He does, that is the plan for you for some reason. If He doesn't, then that is also the plan for you. And His plan is best.

I have a blessed life. It is not the life I imagined as a child...heck, even the life I imagined 5 years ago...but it is blessed. He is teaching me to accept His plans for me. And they are plans for hope and prosperity. Even if it's not the specific type of prosperity I imagined, it is better to be submitting to God's plan than pushing to fulfill my own.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29.11

Jeremiah's name means "the Lord exalts" or "the Lord upholds." That was one reason I was ok with naming my son this somewhat strange, old-fashioned name. Jon came up with it, and, I have to say, I was not thrilled with it at first. But, I clung to it as I tried to figure out how to be a good mother and wife in our new family situation. And it is still something that I think of often as we go through different trials and learn different lessons with parenting and our changing lives.

hm...lots of thoughts here. If you're still with me, thanks. I feel more encouraged at the end of writing than I did when I started.

Here's to a new day tomorrow.

Thursday, January 06, 2011

Christmas and a new year

I love Christmas.

Have I mentioned that before? :)

We had a wonderful Christmas with family and friends this past month, complete with loads of decorations, candy, classic movie-watching, church-going, concertizing, cookie-making, laughter, story-telling, wrapping-wrapping-wrapping, oh, and shopping. And shipping! We had about 2-3 packages arriving a day from various locations nationwide at our place.

We had about 12 people here on and around Christmas day. This included 3 children, which just made all the fantastic-ness of Christmas even better. What a wonderful gift to see holidays through childrens' eyes!

My child was a little overwhelmed, but oh so very happy to have SO many people around to talk to and snuggle with and other little ones to play with. He is still working on understanding and responding appropriately to people and friends, and I have to say that everyone was very patient with him. It is hard to always feel like I need to explain to anyone that comes in contact with him that he is not developmentally able to respond the way they expect him to...yet. There is great hope for the future that he will learn and develop quickly now that he is getting the help he needs. But, the friends we had here needed little to no explanation...they were able to accept and talk about it with me with no worries. That made a somewhat stressful month not so stressful when I was home.

On Christmas Day, we left for OKLAHOMA, as previously posted. It was actually somewhat pleasant flying with Jeremiah this time...although I can't say I genuinely enjoy flying with young children. My sister-in-law does it all the time, and she has 3 under the age of 5! I don't know if she has it in for herself or what...anyway, Jeremiah slept on both of our connecting flights, so that made things easier. That, and he was finally NOT SICK! yay!!

It was great to see my family in mom just loves seeing her grandson and is really looking forward to who she deems "Jemimah." You see, she (along with almost everyone else who voices an opinion) thinks this one is going to be a girl. We've elected not to find out, so the jury's out on this one. I thought Jemimah was a funny name for it right now though. We went out for sushi, saw a lot of amazing light displays, visited Lake Tenkiller, shopped for maternity clothes, watched new movies, played lots of video games, and spent some quality time with my folks and brother. All-in-all, a relaxing trip.

And, we come back, and Jeremiah has started his new preschool. He likes it there, and is getting used to us dropping him off every day...although he cries a bit. It's good for him, but it is strange having the house to myself for 2 mornings a week. I only do this because he needs the therapy that the school can offer him...and this school has a great reputation. We'll see where we're at by the end of the year.

New Year's resolutions?

1. Jon and I have started Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University program, and are loving it. It is not easy, but it is so great to be getting our feet under us financially and being responsible. We are going to really solidify our budget, debt, and saving plans throughout this year, so we are in perfect harmony by next Christmas.

2. I am committing to pray at least 20 minutes a day. There are so many people in my life that I care about and occassionally get frustrated with, and wish I could show love to daily...and I don't pray for them. That is something that is the most important thing I can do for my friends and family. It's a little embarassing to say that I don't so this so much now, but I've just gotten out of the habit of it. I know God can do powerful things, so I'm going to be giving these people over to Him regularly again.

That's it. Nothing fancy, but very practical. I hope you had a wonderful Christmas season, and are having a great start to your new year. I think it's going to be a good one!